Friday, June 23, 2017

Please Keep Praying for Healing and That all This Poison Does Its Job



At 1:30pm today I have my 12th and final Taxol treatment. I so appreciate everyone's prayers. I've gone through three months of chemotherapy with normal cell counts, worked full time, and have had so few side effects that I can only attribute it to God. The Adriamycin may be far more difficult, but for now I'm praising God.
The best part is that I've been able to make a lot of progress on the editing of "The Prescience." I finished chapter 35 last night out of 49 chapters.
I just want to thank Manisha for all her help. Every day she comes over and cleans the litter boxes for me, and each Friday she takes me to my infusion. She has been such an encouragement in so many ways. Thank you, Manisha. I have the most wonderful daughters in the world. Joy has been in Alaska now for over a month working at a Bible camp. Two more months to go. Miss her lots and can't wait until she comes home.
Please keep praying for healing and that all this poison does its job.

Saturday, June 10, 2017

Tenth Taxol Treatment and God Still Has My Back - Jesus is Bigger Than Breast Cancer




I had my tenth Taxol treatment today and all my numbers were normal! The PA said up to 85% of patients have neuropathy, and is amazed I haven't had anything. I continue to praise God and give Him the glory. I think the cold gloves are also helping, although, to be honest, it's torture wearing them.

Food still tastes good also, which is a bonus. I'm wearing the arm sleeve through chemo treatment as the physical therapist said it would help to prevent lymphedema. I use it with captioning - most of the time. It's very hot to wear in Florida. The radiation will increase the risk of lymphedema, so I need to do what I can now to prevent it.

Only six more chemo treatments. Two taxol followed by four Adriamycin and Cytoxan. The Ariamycin doesn't cause the neuropathy, so I should not have to worry about that once I finish the Taxol until I start radiation. But Adriamycin can cause LOTS of other problems.


Joy drew this for me for Mother's Day during chemo treatment

In the meantime, I feel attacks in other areas. I've had major on-air tech issues while captioning -- things becoming strangely unplugged, communication issues with printer and computer, that suddenly start working after many many attempts, icap issues with audio (I heard I'm not the only one with this one), incredibly slow issues with my internet provider, computer lock-up, captioning software lock-up, and I've had disappearing files (never happened) requiring me to rewrite shows that I've cleaned for repeat shows. and a couple of brain freeze things.

I came back from the infusion today and went to sleep for three hours, turning on my alarm to wake me up before MLB captioning. I woke up, looked at the clock, and it said 7. I thought it was the morning and didn't remember why I set the alarm, so I turned it off. I woke up ten till 8pm. I went on the air at 8. Well, that's a terrible thing to do. So I worry about stuff like this.

My car is also on the fritz. I'm pretty sure it's the transmission. I had it repaired once which cost $3,000 about five years ago. How much more money should I put into it with 230,000 miles? Last year I lost a few thousand because a company ripped me off. I was fixing to file a lawsuit with their corporate offices when I was diagnosed with beast cancer, so I ended up settling out of court with their corporate offices for $2,000, but I gave half that money to a retired lawyer friend that got my car fixed. Otherwise, I would have been forced to buy another car because of the shop's malpractice. The worst part is my car was unreliable and broke down all over town the entire summer as we tried to figure out what the store did to it. We did find everything they screwed up and fixed it, but I just can't go through the stress this summer of a unreliable car when I'm dealing with cancer treatment.


Another prayer request. In my last post, I loaded an excerpt from "The Prescience" and sent a copy of it to a good author friend in Indonesia who is involved in Muslim-Christian relations as a missionary. He pretty much ripped apart my chapter, and, to be honest, I think he's right. So I spent hours reworking it, and then got another email from a good author friend in England who loved it. So then I questioned if maybe I should rethink everything. Both authors had great insights, and they aren't necessarily mutually exclusive, in some respects, so please pray for me to find the balance I need in this chapter.



I continue to keep my eyes on Jesus, knowing He is the Author and my Redeemer. I have to remember that all redemption may not occur in this life. But I also know Hope never disappoints, and the Comforter's ways are better than mine. So with prayers and God's wisdom I hope to beat every attack on me and give God the glory. He is teaching me many things though all of these struggles, and that brings me supernatural joy.


Saturday, June 3, 2017

Excerpt from "The Prescience: A Young Adult Christian Fantasy, Seventh Dimension Series, Book 5"

Since the Jewish festival of Shavuot and the Christian religious day of Pentecost is upon us, I decided to share this excerpt from Seventh Dimension - The Prescience, that takes place on Pentecost in the first century. The question I asked myself before I wrote The Prescience was, what would happen if a Muslim convert from Hinduism heard Peter at Pentecost? What would be his reaction? 

God continues to encourage me with the editing as I finish my chemo treatments. I pray that this excerpt  will help you to think about how you would witness to a Muslim. The excerpt includes common questions that Muslims have about Christianity.  


The Berean Study Bible admonishes us:

So we aspire to please Him, whether we are here in this body or away from it. 10For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, that each one may receive his due for the things done in the body, whether good or bad. 11Therefore, since we know what it means to fear the Lord, we try to persuade men. What we are is clear to God, and I hope it is clear to your conscience as well.


EXCERPT FROM THE PRESCIENCE

“Is that REALLY why you don’t want to go back?” Daniel asked.
“Yes. It’s the truth. Without the implant, the scientists can’t track me. I’ve had the dream three times. I asked Allah to take away the dream, but he hasn’t. Why not? Now I want to find out about Jesus.”
“Is Tariq a scientist?” Daniel asked.
Nidal shook his head. “He told me the scientists are using a powerful weapon to open star gates. They are opening portals between our world and another dimension. The tunnel was so cold I thought we would die of exposure before we arrived.”
Daniel leaned forward and enunciated, “We’re in a spiritual dimension. In one sense, you’re right. The scientists are opening portals to another dimension—but it’s a spiritual dimension.”
“And we’re back in time,” Tariq added.
Daniel nodded. “God said he’s the alpha and the omega, the beginning and the end. We are locked in time—but God is outside of time. Time is an illusion until God’s appointed times. Did Tariq tell you anything else about the scientists?”
“He said the scientists worshipped Shiva, the Hindu god of destruction. He said the scientists want to deconstruct the universe and recreate the big bang. The facility is based on the Swiss-French border. I asked him why these scrolls were so important to the scientists. Tariq said they wanted to erase history and rewrite it. They didn’t want any historical record of Jesus.”
The temple mount around us had become crowded and noisy, making it increasingly difficult to talk. I whispered to Daniel, “Why don’t we take a walk to an area where there are fewer people.”
Daniel motioned to Nidal. “Let’s take a tour of the temple.” He pointed to the pristine structure. “The Romans destroyed the temple in 70 A.D. Some Jews want to rebuild it. Of course, the Dome of the Rock makes that impossible right now.”
The gold between the temple stones glistened in the noonday sun. Hundreds stood in line to make their fruit and grain offerings. Merchants had set up stands for visitors and travelers. The temple wasn’t just the center of worship. It was also the center for trade and business.
Nidal wiped his parched lips. “I heard the disciple speaking Nepali. I haven’t heard that language since I’ve been here.”
“You mean Peter?” Daniel asked.
“Yes,” Nidal replied. “Tell me more about Jesus.”
“Why don’t you ask me a question, and I’ll see if I can answer it.”
Nidal rubbed the back of his neck. “Islam tells us that Jesus didn’t die on the cross.”
Daniel focused his eyes on Nidal’s. “Do you know that no one in history, out of the thousands who were crucified by the Romans, survived the crucifixion?”
“What do you mean?” Nidal asked.
“There isn’t a single recorded case of anyone ever being crucified by the Romans who came down off the cross alive. Every person who was crucified by the Romans died. Don’t you think that if one person, especially someone as controversial as Jesus, had managed to survive, it would have been widely known and reported? Plus, think of all the eyewitnesses who saw Yeshua die. And the scriptures tell us that the Roman guard speared him in the side just to make sure he was dead.”
Nidal reflected on Daniel’s words, but remained quiet.
“Crucifixion is torture,” Daniel said, “and if by some chance Yeshua did manage to survive the crucifixion, do you think he could have made a full recovery based on the crude medical methods of the first century?”
“But how can you be sure?” Nidal asked.
“The only historians to doubt the authenticity of Jesus’s death on the cross are Muslims,” Daniel pointed out. “There is actually very little dispute that Jesus died on the cross among most historians.”
“I wish I had a computer,” Nidal lamented. “I’d search it on Google, but I have a counterargument.”
“What’s that?” Daniel asked.
“Some people claim the disciples took down Jesus’s body and replaced it with the body of Judas.”
Daniel shook his head. “That would be impossible. Judas had already died when Jesus was crucified. The betrayer’s entails spilled out on the ground. That’s why the Jews had to sell the land. His blood had defiled it. Besides, guards were present at the crucifixion of Jesus the entire time. They are the ones who removed Jesus’s body. They would have declared Jesus dead before they delivered the body of Jesus to Nicodemus and the women.
“Believe me,” Daniel continued, “There is no way the Roman soldiers would have removed Jesus from the cross alive, and then retrieved the body of Judas that had been ripped wide open when he hung himself, and nailed Judas to the cross in place of Jesus. That totally contradicts the historical record.”
“I see what you are saying,” Nidal said, “but somehow the Muslim Imams make it sound so probable, so certain, that he didn’t die, but after hearing what Peter said, I’m not sure what to believe.”
 Daniel nodded. “People can sound very convincing, but when you examine the historical record, when you look at the scriptures, when you find so many different sources that say the same thing, you have to examine more closely the authenticity of what they say. Did you know that all of the disciples were martyred except for one?”
 Nidal’s eyes brightened with this question. “Muslims also die for their belief in Islam. So what makes Christians different?”
Daniel mulled over Nidal’s words. “That’s true, someone can be sincere and die for what they believe, but even Muslims wouldn’t die for a lie. They are only willing to die for something they believe is true. If the disciples knew that Yeshua didn’t die on the cross, do you think they would have been willing to die? They were willing to die because they knew Yeshua died on the cross.
“Yeshua had also predicted his death. When he died, the disciples remembered what Jesus had said. He said he would rise again in three days.”
Nidal took a deep breath. “The Bible has been corrupted because there are so many translations. You can believe the Quran because it’s written only in the original Arabic.”
“The Bible is made up of many books,” Daniel said. “The translation of the Torah, Prophets, Psalms and Gospels into different languages allows people to read God’s word in their own language. The Bible was written by many different prophets over fifteen hundred years. The Quran gives you only what Muhammad wrote. The Bible gives you not just one prophet’s message, but all the prophets. Can you read the Quran in Arabic?” Daniel asked.
“I can read it, but I don’t know what I’m reading,” Nidal admitted.
“What good is it to read the Quran in Arabic if you don’t understand what it is you’re reading?”
Nidal countered Daniel, “You know the Quran is the true word of Allah because it’s not been changed since Muhammad dictated it from Gabriel.”
“How can you be sure if you can’t understand what you’re reading?”
Nidal shrugged. “I don’t know.”
Daniel stroked his chin. “Actually, I don’t think that’s true about the Quran. It’s my understanding that many early copies of the Quran were deemed illegal when a Muslim scholar three hundred years after Muhammad’s death designated only seven different readings legal. Portions of the earlier texts were changed or omitted. That’s not what you will hear from Muslim scholars, but if you read the historical record, that’s what you will discover.”
Nidal’s eyes bulged, as if he didn’t believe Daniel’s statement.
“As far as the Bible, it gives many warnings about not changing anything in the scriptures. In the Book of Revelation the disciple John wrote, ‘If anyone adds to these things, God will add to him the plagues that are written in this book.’ Moses wrote the same thing in Torah. ‘You shall not add to the word which I command you, nor take from it, that you may keep the commandments of the Lord.’
“Two centuries later, Solomon wrote in the Psalms, ‘Every word of God is pure. Do not add to his words, lest he rebuke you, and you be found a liar.’”
“The books of the Bible were written by many people with great care. Doesn’t the Quran attest to the authenticity of the scriptures that existed even before Muhammad wrote the Quran?”
“Yes,” Nidal admitted, “in Quran 5:43.”
“I can give you God’s word in your own language and you can read it for yourself and understand. There are no contradictions in the Bible. The greatest story ever told runs through God’s Word from the Old Testament to the New Testament—God’s plan of salvation found in Jesus Christ. In the Old Testament, it is revealed through hundreds of prophecies. Many were fulfilled in Jesus’s first coming.”
Nidal remained skeptical. “I can’t believe God would allow his son to die on the cross. How could a holy God allow such an evil travesty, even if were true that God even had a son?”
“That’s a good point,” Daniel said. “But remember, God rescued us, just as we rescued Shira. We risked our lives to save her, adopting her as our daughter. Would a loving father not do everything in his power to save his child? Would he ever abandon his child on the streets? Would he, for example, sue her in a court of law? Or if she got cancer, wouldn’t he make sure she got the best medical care possible, even at great cost to him?”
“Of course,” Nidal said. “No loving father would abandon his child, or sue her, or not provide for her best medical care if she would die without it.”
Daniel pressed the point one step further. “If human fathers, who are imperfect, will do that for their children, will not God, who loves perfectly, sacrifice himself on the cross for his children—for you and me, whom he adopted? Would he not give up everything, to the point of death on the cross?”
Nidal swallowed hard, obviously overcome with emotion.
“Grace is not free,” Daniel said, “and God sent Yeshua to die for us. God can’t ignore or excuse sin. God is so holy that no one can see him face to face. Only through Jesus can we see God. Our heavenly father deserves our utmost respect and honor, but he doesn’t demand our worship. We worship him because he first loved us, and he showed us his love by sending Jesus, his only son, to die in our place on the cross as an atoning sacrifice.”
Nidal turned away, overcome with emotion. “I’ve always had this longing for more. Hinduism left me empty. I thought Islam would fulfill me. I wanted to be acceptable to God. That’s why I did the Haj, to earn Allah’s favor.”
“You can’t do anything to earn God’s favor,” Daniel said.
Nidal’s eyes narrowed. “Then what can you do if you can’t do anything?”
“Jesus has already done it for you, when he died on the cross.”
Nidal’s eyes returned to Peter in the distance. I sensed a sadness in them, a longing for something he thought he couldn't have. I knew it was harder for Muslims to accept Yeshua because of the implications to their extended family, but Nidal didn't seem to have extended family that mattered to him. 
Dozens were still gathered around Jesus's new leader, Peter, and the disciples. 
“How can I receive the Holy Spirit like Peter did?” Nidal asked.
“By believing Jesus died for your sins.”
Nidal pondered Daniel's words. “The Quran says Jesus was a great prophet, that he performed miracles, healed the sick, and was a man of peace. As good as Jesus was, however, Muhammad was a superior prophet.”
     Daniel scuffled some rocks from under his feet, as if trying to come up with a good counter response. 
     I frowned. I hoped my betrothed was wise enough to shift the conversation away from an unproductive line of discussion. Daniel seemed to have read my mind. 
“Does the Quran mention anything about Allah forgiving you so you can go to heaven?”
Nidal stared crestfallen at his feet. “The Quran doesn’t talk about forgiveness—or love. You have no assurance about making it to heaven. You try to live a good life that will please Allah. Sadly, I think I’ve failed, and there is nothing I can do about it.”
“Do you know Jesus’s message when he came to Israel the first time?” Daniel asked.
“No, I don’t think so. The Quran doesn’t talk about Jesus like that.”
Jesus said, “For God so loved the world he gave his only begotten son, that whosoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life.”
“Christians can be sure they will go to heaven?” Nidal asked.
“Yes, one hundred percent sure.”
“It’s hard for me to imagine anyone could be a hundred percent sure of going to heaven.”
“It isn’t if you’re a Christian,” Daniel assured him. “God loves you unconditionally,” and then Daniel quickly added, "I care about you, too. I want to be your friend."
“If only I could believe that,” Nidal said, “And understand forgiveness. If only…”

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The Prescience will be available hopefully by the end of the summer. 
Your thoughts on this excerpt would be much appreciated!